Wednesday, 12 February 2014

Bike

I went out for a ride after years... it was actually fun, even thou now I need a painkiller.... lol

Babbling about anything to keep me from thinking about myself... well done mate!!!

I've been feeling deeply lonely... when I see someone treating someone else nice, I feel like I could/should have that too... but I can see that I don't allow people to get close enough to do that... and I still miss it... and it's so common to feel as if I actually didn't deserve it...
I put on my brave face and pretend everything's ok...

at this point I realise why I'm an workaholic/compulsive reader/ compulsive whatever.... it's actually easier to spend one's  brain in something else rather than thinking about one's emotional turmoil...

What the f**k is wrong with me? PMS?

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