Wow

It's so amazing.... seriously... there are so many details... impressive...

:D

Doctors.... humpf...

Why do doctors think they are so bloody special.... seriously, if you get late for a doctor appointment, you probably won't get to talk with the doctor.... but it's ok for you to wait for hours.... seriously...I'm here, waiting, for over one hour... my appointment was at 9, and God knows when he will call me. If I do something like that as a psychologist, I'd loose my clients...

New old things

Feeling a bit excited about the possibility of starting to work with psychology again.... :)

Cuddling

After a very,very long time I've finally spent the night with someone... literally sleeping... ok I didn't have that much sleep... I felt really strange sharing a bed with someone... I was really worried all the time.... will I wake him up? But being with someone was so nice...
It's official... I want this way more often than I have had lately.... like all the time... :)

Ow crap. .. I'm so in trouble....

Xx

Names, names.. why do I have to put names?

Got to the conclusion that this emptiness inside me is sometimes so big and so strong that it can swallow me up in a heartbeat... and the only reason it doesn't do it it's to have me feeling it all the time...

Yeap... guess I may need an upgrade on my meds.... or just cry it out...

Bike

I went out for a ride after years... it was actually fun, even thou now I need a painkiller.... lol

Babbling about anything to keep me from thinking about myself... well done mate!!!

I've been feeling deeply lonely... when I see someone treating someone else nice, I feel like I could/should have that too... but I can see that I don't allow people to get close enough to do that... and I still miss it... and it's so common to feel as if I actually didn't deserve it...
I put on my brave face and pretend everything's ok...

at this point I realise why I'm an workaholic/compulsive reader/ compulsive whatever.... it's actually easier to spend one's  brain in something else rather than thinking about one's emotional turmoil...

What the f**k is wrong with me? PMS?

Things that are put in that box up there

Ok I still in that tine (I hope) crush for yesterday's guy...

And I's watching tv and "ghosts of girlfriends past" was on.... why the hack I watched that again... in the end of the film the guy explained that everything he had done was out of fear, that he had been to afraid of getting really involved and being abandoned....

Crap.... that hit way too close home...

Night

Yesterday

I had such a cute experience yesterday... I went out with some friends and end up hanging out with one of them... omg, he's so lovable... lol I guess I've to be on alert for this one... I could fall for him... big time...

Hot hot hot

It's bloody hot... 10 at night and it's still 30 degrees... fuck...

Made a cute bib to my friend's soon to be born niece... :)

I hadn't cross-stitched in years... not a bad job...

:)

:D

Lovely weekend.... lots of beer, friends and laughs....
And now ending it with a really sweetened coffee, as only a grandmother can do it...

:D

Kind of miss my granny...