Finally a movement... I'm not dead, or dying, maybe it was only a long hibernation period. I need to find strenght to move on, sure, pills help, but... shouldn't be only this... Anyway, I'm going back to swimming, and I intend to study for a contest, or to start a master degree, or, whatever, I need to do more then work and sleep. I need to become a human being again, a person with a life, and interests, and dreams, and... well this kind of stuff... let's see how I'm going to do that...

I haven't logged in in a long time... dwelling upon the boredom and frozen moment I've been living in... not that I've changed anything... everything still pretty much the same... but today I started to wander over the idea of "the brightest bulb in the box"... Not sure where I'd be in that box... probably not the brightest one... hopefully not the palest one either... so where do I stand?